I guess working for an OB/GYN you become numb to alot of things, sad things. People miscarrying, trying to empathize with them, when you truly can't. I have to say that when a woman is pregnant and they lose their baby when they are almost due, it is heart wrenching! I have worked in the OB/GYN field now for 10 years and this has only happened twice. Below is a link to another blog for a woman who lost her baby at 30 weeks, make sure to watch the video as well. It just breaks my heart to see this, maybe because I have 3 perfect, healthy, capable, loving, alive children and sometimes I question God, "Why couldn't you have done the same for them, What did they do to deserve this?". I know how truly blessed I am! I know after seeing the video and the blog that my life is forever changed. Please have kleenex ready, you will be crying by the end of the video and especially after reading her blog posts.
http://oursydneygrace.blogspot.com/ Here is one of her blogs. My heart sinking as I read it and tears starting to flow. I know this feeling because I have two daughters to buy those shoes for...
"i found the sweetest tiniest little plaid baby mary-jane shoes tonight at target. i would have bought them in a heartbeat for her to wear at easter. i even pondered the idea of buying them anyway..really, it actually crossed my mind and i picked them up to look at them..they were adorable. they were so me and my style and how i wanted to dress my little girl. not velvet or patent leather or fancy frills, but hippy-chic and a little tomboy. i was so excited, once to be able to start shopping for girly things instead of all the boring boy stuff that is offered to us moms. but now, well i looked at those shoes tonight like they had a "prohibited for Alyssa" tag on them. like i was not allowed to buy them. i had no one to buy them for anymore. i wasn't part of the girl "club" any longer....it felt like temptation. recovering alcoholics don't go to bars, why do i still go to target? i would have bought those shoes for you syd....your sweet feet would have looked precious in them. "
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