Keeping

I have to say that "Faith" is definately one of my biggest struggles. I am one of the most impatient people you will ever meet, just ask Brian. If I ask you to do something or need something I mean right now, not in a minute. I am a "need a miracle now" kind of person. I am seriously trying to keep my faith alive and let go and let God with all that is going on with our family right now, but it is really hard!

Tara is improving, but she still has a hole somewhere in her lung that is leaking. I have tried to talk with or text Craig, my brother in law, daily to find out Tara's progress and to check on him to see how he is doing through all this and he is hanging in there, but I know it is really hard on him to see Tara like this. Molly, my niece, is good. She is being taken care of by my mother in law and Tara's mom. Craig and Tara have such strong Faith in God and I know that it will get them through this.

My Grandad is doing ok. He is on my mind constantly. I love my Meme and Grandad more than I could ever express. This is where I have a hard time with my Faith. I know that even if I have Faith and try to be patient, my Grandad is going to die. His prognosis is not good and even if my Faith was as strong as Craig and Taras he will still have a mass in his chest that is most likely cancer. He is 80 years old and has lived a wonderful life! He has my Meme that he has been married to for 60 years, 4 kids, 11 grandkids, and 6 great gandkids that love him dearly! I hope that he has faith. Faith that his family will take care of my Meme, take care of his legacy, take care of all he has lived for. I hope that he has faith, faith in God, greater than any of us. He is a wonderful man that needs faith to get him through until the end.

With this being said. I am really trying to have Faith. Faith that we will always remember and tell our kids about my Grandad. Faith that life gets better as you go forward in life. Faith that no matter what happens God is here to comfort you, provide for you, and help you with whatever you are struggling with. Faith. Trying to keep the Faith!

Grandad

I have to say that I am truly blah! All I can think about is my grandad who has a mass in his chest that is also showing up in his left lung and under his arm. I try not to think of the "worst", but being in the medical field and seeing what I see, of course I think the worst. My grandad is not your normal "grandpa", he tells us dirty jokes that make you laugh so hard you almost pee your pants, he still works fulltime at 80 years old running Massey Painting, goes to the horse races, bets, and somehow always wins! He is a one of a kind!

I know that the day will come that he will not be with us, but I am not ready for that yet. I am not ready. Brian knows that if anything ever happened to my MeMe or Grandad that I would be hysterical! I am so glad that I have great memories from my childhood and adulthood with them.

He has a biopsy scheduled for Thursday and I am pretty sure what the outcome will be. He has smoked since he was 13 and is now 80. I just can't except it right now. I wanted 2010 to be a great year.........this is not something anyone planned or could control, but it is not what any of our family was expecting this year.

Please keep our family in your daily prayers.

LOVE Is In The Air & New Counters = New Kitchen (well almost new)

LOVE is in the air in the Titsworth household! As you can see by the pic of my entryway table. I love it. Valentines Day is just around the corner!

Brian has been working his booty off putting in my new counters and backsplash. He is not done yet, but hopefully soon he will be. Almost there!

OLD COUNTERS, NO BACK SPLASH

NEW COUNTERS WITH BACKSPLASH. NO GROUT IN TILE YET.

DIETING

Blah! Oh how I hate dieting and Oh how I love, love, love FOOD! but, I am dieting! BLAH! I am eating right, no chocolate in 2 days and I am having major withdrawals, and exercising! I have lost a pound, whoopty doo, one pound! I guess it is a start.........my goal is 50 pounds! We will see..........I will keep ya'll updated with my progress. Good Luck to me, especially surviving with no chocolate, Poor Brian and my kids will have to endure the wrath that is "Mel with no chocolate!" lol. Please pray for me to have strength and not to kill anyone due to lack of food. (:

Cheers to a New Year!

Yea! 2010 is here! I have so many things going through my brain that I want to tell everyone about....................To start with, I have opened an Etsy store. I can hear ya'll asking "What is an etsy store?", well at etsy.com you can open your own page and you sell stuff (only homemade stuff can be sold), kinda like ebay, but you don't bid. I am so excited about it........... Now to put all my great crafty ideas to use! I will list it for ya'll once I get it going and list items on it! YEA!
To start our 2010 off, we had some friends come over and we hung out and had a blast! We have grown very fond of The Banks Family, The Carpenter Family, and The Petty Family! Robbi, Candice, and Paula have become some of my best girlfriends. They are always there when I need anything. I can't wait to see what the new year has in store for our friendships to grow! We played Scattegories, Wii Sing It ( and we couldn't really sing it, but did try!), and just hung out. Josh and Jenny even stopped by to join in on the fun. A huge wine bottle later and lots of laughs, we rang in 2010 together!
New Years day we spent with Craig, Tara, Molly, and my inlaws. We didn't get to see them on Christmas due to David and I being sick (we didn't want to get Molly sick since she is so little). We ate yummo food and opened our presents. I got to spoil Molly and love on her! She is so, so sweet! She makes me want a baby girl so bad! I miss having babies, even though I know I don't want anymore of my own. I love Molly and I would take her home in a heartbeat!

Now for the new year! I have so many goals for this year! It has been such a whirlwind the last ten years. Looking back, I can't believe all that I have survived! So here I am, after surviving 2 affairs ( my ex had them, not me), a divorce, moving back in with my parents for 6 months (hardest thing I have ever done, I haven't lived at home since I was 18!), three pregnancies, marrying Brian, and trying to stay sane with all the daily craziness I have to deal with...........I feel I am a much better, stronger, happier person.

I have truly been blessed with so many friends! I have gained a nephew, a niece, cousins, and a sister the last ten years! I am truly blessed!

I can't wait to get my life going in 2010! Blessings for the new year!

MEL