Keeping

I have to say that "Faith" is definately one of my biggest struggles. I am one of the most impatient people you will ever meet, just ask Brian. If I ask you to do something or need something I mean right now, not in a minute. I am a "need a miracle now" kind of person. I am seriously trying to keep my faith alive and let go and let God with all that is going on with our family right now, but it is really hard!

Tara is improving, but she still has a hole somewhere in her lung that is leaking. I have tried to talk with or text Craig, my brother in law, daily to find out Tara's progress and to check on him to see how he is doing through all this and he is hanging in there, but I know it is really hard on him to see Tara like this. Molly, my niece, is good. She is being taken care of by my mother in law and Tara's mom. Craig and Tara have such strong Faith in God and I know that it will get them through this.

My Grandad is doing ok. He is on my mind constantly. I love my Meme and Grandad more than I could ever express. This is where I have a hard time with my Faith. I know that even if I have Faith and try to be patient, my Grandad is going to die. His prognosis is not good and even if my Faith was as strong as Craig and Taras he will still have a mass in his chest that is most likely cancer. He is 80 years old and has lived a wonderful life! He has my Meme that he has been married to for 60 years, 4 kids, 11 grandkids, and 6 great gandkids that love him dearly! I hope that he has faith. Faith that his family will take care of my Meme, take care of his legacy, take care of all he has lived for. I hope that he has faith, faith in God, greater than any of us. He is a wonderful man that needs faith to get him through until the end.

With this being said. I am really trying to have Faith. Faith that we will always remember and tell our kids about my Grandad. Faith that life gets better as you go forward in life. Faith that no matter what happens God is here to comfort you, provide for you, and help you with whatever you are struggling with. Faith. Trying to keep the Faith!